OppositeRule

Lately I’ve been trying to get back into devotional service again, but I’m finding many obstacles that I will need to overcome. A major portion of this is figuring out how to get along with devotees, because I still feel that it was problems with devotees that pushed me out. Another big issue I struggle [...]

I seem to be in a very weird circumstance.  The mean behavior of devotees made me quit aspiring for Krsna consciousness and try to believe that Krsna is imaginary, but associating with atheists renewed my faith in Krsna.  I had been trying my best to serve devotees according to my duty, but the GBC contemptuously [...]

UPDATE Dec. 11, 2010: A second article has been published wherein Mahavidya notes that he received no response to his first. I responded with what I have written below, with a few later edits, but Rocana rejected it with no indication that he had read it, instead referring to an incident from a few months [...]

I’ve been listening to Srila Prabhupada’s audio recordings nearly every day for a while, and a few days ago I completed hearing the whole 19 CD collection.  It’s over 1,000 hours of Srila Prabhupada, and most of the MP3s I’ve heard more than once.  For me, nothing compares to hearing Srila Prabhupada for purifying my [...]

Recently Sita-pati Prabhu composed a blog entry addressing my strained relationship with ISKCON, and I appreciated what he wrote. ( http://www.atmayogi.com/node/3595 ) ?I realize that it must be a challenge for him dealing with the controversy I sometimes raise, which feeds to PlanetISKCON. I try to take that into consideration when I write, but I [...]

Although I began this blog with the full intention of describing how wonderful is the process of advancing in devotional service from my perspective, many readers have remarked that it’s overly negative. In fact, the theme of this blog is in describing my journey, and I’ve stuck to that even though it’s not been nearly [...]

It was 1999 and I had gone to Mangala Arati at the Philadelphia Temple one Sunday morning. I lived about a half-hour drive from there (maybe a little quicker at 4 a.m.), but it was something I wanted to do. My family was new in the area, and my job was only one mile from [...]

I haven’t been writing much here in the past several months, I think largely because its being fed to PlanetISKCON. My relationship with Iskcon just isn’t what I hoped it would be. I feel like Iskcon has chewed me up and spit me out, and so it’s hard to write on the bright side all [...]

There’s been a lot of Internet Hare Krishna chatter lately about membership in ISKCON, and it’s a subject that I’ve been thinking about as it relates to me personally.  In an ideal world, there would be no question for me.  When I began my aspiration for devotional service, Krishna said to get some association of [...]

Hare Krishna. Earlier this week, the anti-rtvik crusader Gaura Kesava Prabhu submitted a few messages deriding me on the PAMHO conference “Prabhupada Disciples.” The subject lines were “Bhakta Pandu Hypocrite” and “Immature Bhakta Pandu.” Needless to say, the content of the e-mails was not at all nice, and I do not believe his criticism accurately [...]