I spoke to His Holiness Bhaktimarga Swami on the phone. It was a relief. Actually I was a little afraid when he called, because I’ve been so freaked out over the issues, and even suffered a momentary loss of faith in him. I think that perhaps this loss of faith was a [...]
[August 29 updates]
Hare Krishna. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
I am not supposed to be writing this.
I had that meeting on Thursday with the Gita-nagari Community Board members. The following words come to mind when I think of that meeting:
deceptionliesdirty politicsmind gamesbetrayaltwisteddouble-standardssacrilege
Today is Srila Prabhupada’s appearance day, and I feel [...]
August 25, 2005. Hare Krishna I spoke on the phone with my guru maharaj, His Holiness Bhaktimarga Swami, about an hour ago. He seems quite concerned about my relationship with Iskcon and especially with the Gita-nagari community. He said that the two of us should maintain a more open dialogue with each other, so that the issues [...]
Hare Krishna. Please note that I’ve re-structured this so that you can read it from top to bottom in the order that it was written. Ordinarily I would edit out the private response to me, except that I feel that this is a matter of public importance and the possibilty that it would [...]
In the past day or so, a “Vakresvara Pandit das Decision Clarification” was published on the Internet. I have a few comments. The colored text, by the way, is a link to the letter and document, so I won’t copy the whole thing here.
“The appeal judges basically confirmed the original [...]
Today was quite a blogging day here. I was obviously upset this morning, and I released a little of my frustration. A bunch of comments came in, which makes this all pretty exciting. For several months I was just typing to myself here as if no one would read it, but now [...]
Twenty-five years ago, when I was 8 years old, I decided that finding out if God was real was the most important thing in life; and that if I did find out that God was indeed real, then pleasing Him would be the most important thing.
About thirteen years ago [...]
It seems that my predominant spiritual mood has graduated from sadness to despair. I remain unable to comprehend the mercy of The Uttama Super-Duper Grandiose Ultra-Wonderful Eternal Cosmic Guru Om Sri Sri Om Sri Sri Sri Bhakti Tirtha Swami Om Krishnapada. Due to His Perfect Super-Divine Gracefulness, I have gone, in about four months, [...]
[update: August 21, 2005, 6:40 p.m... I originally posted the the entry below on Friday night, but then removed it when I woke up at around 2 a.m. with a terrible headache. I'm putting it back because my feeling of depression and critical loss of faith in Iskcon continues unabated.]
Today is [...]
I’m getting requests for the book I mentioned in my previous blog entry. My wife bought it off a table from a devotee supplied by Krishna Culture. I think we bought her last one. But here’s where anyone can get one…
Our Srila Prabhupada A Friend to All / Early [...]