Censuring BKG, why not Radhanatha and Malati too?
A few days ago I read the 2011 GBC Resolutions and was surprised to see the “Letter of Censure to Bir Krishna Das Goswami.” I don’t have any special interest in BKG, having never met him, but I noted the reference to ISKCON Law 3.5.5.1.3.9. and was awestruck. If I had known about that law six years ago, it seems like I’d still be an aspiring devotee today. Instead, largely because of three prominent GBC members — Bhakti-Tirtha, Radhanatha, and Malati — violating that law in my community, ISKCON and the whole Hare Krishna movement is becoming less relevant to me with each passing day. It so happens that Bhakti-Tirtha was dieing and is mostly excusable on that account. Malati has been kind to me on several occasions, but it doesn’t change the facts here. Radhanatha just blew me off and left town when I asked to meet with him about his bringing someone whom the ISKCON Child Protection Office had found guilty of child molestation, although I was told he was agreeable to meeting with my wife without me!
Nobody seems to know much of ISKCON Law, but I was able to get the actual text of this section with some help from a friend. It reads:
“3.5.5.1.3.9 Child Protection Concerns Persons, who after an ISKCON investigation, are confirmed to be guilty of child abuse must report their status to the local Temple President upon their arrival in an ISKCON community. Also, it is the obligation of a Temple President to determine for every member joining his community, if the newcomer is a confirmed child abuser. The Temple President is then obliged to notify the local householders and GBC of the offender’s presence. The local GBC should be advised if a Temple President knowingly arranges for a confirmed child abuser to be supported by a temple, or live on temple property without first notifying the householder community as per ISKCON laws. The local GBC is to supervise the situation to be sure the Temple President follows the following GBC guidelines: 1. “In no case should a confirmed perpetrator remain in the local community unless the local ISKCON authorities obtain the written authorization of no less than three-quarter of the parents of children at the project or in the community. 2. The local government authorities and/or the ISKCON Board of Education will make the final determination of the appropriate degree of segregation. (1990-119.4)” 3. Every GBC make sure the temples presidents in his zone are made aware of this resolution and GBC guidelines.”
I was further surprised to see that the GBC issued this letter of censure fifteen years after the fact, which tells me that the law has been in effect at least that long. I so much wish I knew of it back in 2005.
That was a very pivotal year for my aspiring Krishna consciousness. It was the same year I started this blog, intending to document my happy progress in Krishna consciousness. However, it did not continue on that trajectory very long.
At the beginning of that year, I was very enthused about trying my best at Krishna consciousness, and I suppose that was noticed because I was elected to the Gita-nagari community board that spring, although not on my own initiative. I chose not to vote for myself, deciding that I would only accept the service with substantial support from the community. I was also afraid of the potential for offenses that would come with having authority over devotees, so I sincerely prayed to Sri Sri Radha-Damodara to help me serve Them nicely and protect me. It seems that They had something more disruptive in mind.
It was around that time that Vakresvara Pandit arrived as a guest of honor with full red-carpet treatment. I would later learn that it was done through an agreement between the Child Protection Office and Radhanatha and Malati, because Bhakti Tirtha Swami had come to Gita-nagari to die, and he wanted Vakresvara Pandit to lead kirtan as he was dying. The CPO, its Director later told me, intended to authorize something minor but it so happened that this “benediction” made Vakresvara into a big celebrity and he clearly exploited that for his sense gratification. I saw him engage with kids in several dangerous activities that I thought put the whole community at risk, which I won’t go into now but which were documented at Oppositerule when they happened.. During the same period, I happened to learn that Vakresvara Pandit had a behavior problem including a child molestation record and was not following the rectification plan assigned to him by ISKCON’s Child Protection Office (“CPO”). Since my wife was on the Child Protection Team, and I on the Community Board, that seemed like something we should find out about. To my surprise, I was unable to get much help from the CPO, but fortunately I was able to get from someone else a copy of the Official Decision finding Vakresvara guilty of child molestation and prescribing a rectification plan for him.
In short, the Official Decision found that when Vakresvara was about 40 years old, he had sexual intercourse about 8 times with a vulnerable devotee girl over the course of a year, beginning when she was thirteen years old. One devotee attorney I who was familiar with the details indicated in correspondence with me that in his view Vakresvara was a sexual predator. The Official Decision stipulated several conditions that Vakresvara had to obey to participate in ISKCON, with maximum importance stressed upon the first two conditions: 1, That Vakresvara write a letter of apology to the girl, submitted to the CPO; and 2, that Vakresvara pay $3,000 in restitution. The Official Decision stipulated that unless Vakresvara complied with at least these two requirements, he could not be allowed on ISKCON property or any affiliation with ISKCON projects. Not only did he fail to comply with these requirements, he actually displayed serious contempt for them and for the Child Protection Office.
As I was learning of this, I felt great anxiety because the mood at Gita-nagari was overwhelmingly absorbed in Bhakti-Tirtha Swami, whom I was repeatedly told was a pure devotee. I was upset because he was leaving his body, and I was never able to get to know him very well. I was also perplexed over his invitation to Vakresvara, why a pure devotee would want an unrepentant child molester to sing for him at such a special time.
I tried to have my concerns addressed as discretely as I could, but months went by without any progress. Then the night BTS passed away, I found myself in a little altercation with Vakresvara over his neglecting the big bonfires he had built in the woods. It might have been a minor disagreement, considering the circumstances, but I was upset at the notion of arguing with a devotee and offered him my humble obeisances, which he expressly rejected. I was shocked, unprepared for such Vaisnava behavior, and I was glad to see him leave because it had seemed like he was going to hit me. The next day my guru, Bhaktimarga Swami, arrived and I asked for his advice about my concerns over Vakresvara Pandit, and he encouraged me to follow through with it.
I also found out around that time that while Vakresvara was at Gita-nagari, he had an appeal trial over the child molestation determination, but I was initially unable to get information from the CPO. Eventually I broke down and begged him to have mercy, and Tamohara (the CPO Chief) relented and shared the Appeal Decision with me. I looked and immediately noted that they found all of his objections without merit and affirmed the finding of guilt. The only two points in Vakresvara’s favor were based on errors, and these points were corrected after I pointed them out to the CPO. Specifically, appeal judges opted to declare Vakresvara’s rectification period complete with time served and noting that the sex was consensual; however there was more than sufficient proof available to show that he never followed the rectification plan and practically flaunted his disobedience to it. Also, nowhere in the USA is there legal validity to the notion of a thirteen year old child consenting to sex. In the end, the CPO appeal panel had affirmed Vakresvara’s guilt but waived the apology letter and restitution and maintained some very minor restrictions for one year.
After about three months of headaches worrying about this, realizing that going through “proper channels” is exhausting and wholly unproductive, I posed a question to the BTSwami e-mail group, asking if anyone knew what BTS thought about Vakresvara’s child molestation issue. The response was harsh. In short, my community rejected me and undermined my relationship with my guru by getting him to try to bring me in line. Unfortunately, in this situation my guru lied to me, broke a promise to me, and changed his advice supporting me into an order to stop (with no discussion of why). He also rejected me as a candidate for brahmana initiation because I was documenting these events on my blog, apparently without personally reading it.
That put me into about 18 months of severe depression, which I eventually sought to end, knowing no other way besides rejoining devotee society. I apologized to everyone and begged for forgiveness, but the only apology anyone gave me was from the fellow who had actually threatened me. To come back, I had internalized all the faults and accepted them as my own, but I eventually realized that was unnatural and I could not sustain it. In due course I got on board with the rtviks, but I could not stay with them because I consider Srila Prabhupada responsible for ISKOCN and the chain of command that he put in place. After fifteen years and chanting Krishna’s names around 100 million times, the Krishna consciousness has become painful to think about, enough that it has become a relief to forget about Krishna when possible.
I’m reached the point where I don’t want to care about this movement anymore and I am trying to get free. There is so much hypocrisy that my head could explode. So now I learn about ISKCON Law 3.5.5.1.3.9. It could have done me a lot of good back in 2005, but maybe that’s just wishful thinking. However, maybe I’d still be trying to be a devotee if that law were respected.
As I read this law, the responsibility initially falls upon the Temple President, but the responsibility for ensuring compliance goes to the GBC. Our TP then was a disciple of BTS, who was our GBC. Of course, BTS was in no condition to act as GBC, but we had two other GBC members on extended visit: Radhanatha Swami and Malati Mataji. As I understand it, they were the ones who somehow got the CPO to stick its head up its ass and pretend that everything was OK with having an unrepentant child molester as a V.I.P. at Gita-nagari.
I had wanted, along with my wife, to meet with Radhanatha Swami about our concern over Vakresvara, but he would only agree to meet with my wife if I was not there! I have to admit I felt insulted and that it was a very improper condition for a sannyasi to impose. We said my wife would not be comfortable with that arrangement, and instead of giving a reply, he just left with no meeting.
Radhanatha and Malati, as the responsible GBC members at Gita-nagari in spring-summer 2005, should have been making sure that “In no case should a confirmed perpetrator remain in the local community unless the local ISKCON authorities obtain the written authorization of no less than three-quarter of the parents of children at the project or in the community.” Instead of trying to get permission from my wife and me, for bringing Vakresvara to our community, they were collaborating with the CPO to prevent the Gita-nagari community from knowing that their good friend Vakresvara whom they had invited as a great Vaisnava was in fact an unrepentant child molester. I was trying to get the information needed to understand the situation, so I could properly perform my duty as a community board member and assist my wife on the Child Protection Team, and for this I was rejected by my so-called Vaisnava community and sent down a path where I eventually lost faith in Srila Prabhupada’s teachings due to the gross misbehavior of his leading disciples and the chain of command he established.
I won’t hold my breath waiting for ISKCON poster-boy Radhanatha to be censured by his pals. LOL.
stay true to yourself. believe in what you have done and continue to do. this is too often typical reaction in this type of situation in all society to this crime.
all it takes for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing.
You are a hero. do not let cowards disempower you. do not be depressed. stay strong you are a valuable member of any society be it KC or otherwise. Your experiennce gained in the coverup of such matters and the strength gained and needed to fight the good fight will be of great good in future. Consider yourself blessed amongst man. I trust you never let it go until…? although we can not make foolish people wise, but we can protect our children from fools. 13yrs is underage and is an offence.
Paul prabhu,
It’s Kali Yuga – the age of quarrel and HYPOCRISY!!! (and the last leg of Dharma, truthfullness being broken, and getting more broken).
Warnings are given in the sastras regarding Kali Yuga, with demons dressing up as “saints” for the purpose of getting money, position, name, fame, etc.
It’s written so that we simple-hearted and honest folks will get awakened to the facts, even if we don’t like the truth.
You write of GBC law: The GBC follows its law ONLY when it proves to be a CONVENIENCE to them.
You wrote, “If I had known about that law six years ago, it seems like I’d still be an aspiring devotee today.”
Maybe, and maybe not: Maybe you would have gotten more fried had you known about the law and seen that it was NOT being implemented (or was not going to be implemented at that time, even if you were to have pointed out that law. It’s been a GBC law since 1994 that women in ISKCON shouldn’t wear saffron – They made this law specifically for me – but look who’s wearing saffron; Malati, one of the (female-bodied) GBC.
15. Whereas it is against Vedic and Vaisnava principles for women to take sannyas, and whereas it is not authorized by Srila Prabhupada, it is resolved that those women rejoining ISKCON after taking sannyas are free to rejoin their families. If any woman devotee is internally committed to celibacy they are welcome to follow that decision in ISKCON in WHITE cloth and to render devotional service up to their full capacity and dedicate themselves to the sankirtan movement of Lord Caitanya Mahaprabhu. They are to be encouraged and respected as preachers
“Instead, largely because of three prominent GBC members — Bhakti-Tirtha, Radhanatha, and Malati — violating that law in my community, ISKCON and the whole Hare Krishna movement is becoming less relevant to me with each passing day.”
Hey, since you mentioned Radhanath’s name, here’s another 1994 GBC resolution
14. That HH Radhanatha Swami is appointed as an assistant GBC and initiating guru, provided the United States Government does not indict him in its case now pending against Kirtananda Swami.
“It so happens that Bhakti-Tirtha was dieing and is mostly excusable on that account. Malati has been kind to me on several occasions, but it doesn’t change the facts here. Radhanatha just blew me off and left town when I asked to meet with him about his bringing someone whom the ISKCON Child Protection Office had found guilty of child molestation, although I was told he was agreeable to meeting with my wife without me!”
Isn’t that “funny”? – that Radhanath, as a sannyasi would PURPOSELY CHOOSE to meet your wife without your being there, as opposed to meeting BOTH of you together. Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati Thakur REFUSED to meet a woman, when she asked to see him, “without my husband being present.”
“I was further surprised to see that the GBC issued this letter of censure fifteen years after the fact, which tells me that the law has been in effect at least that long. I so much wish I knew of it back in 2005.”
Paul prabhu, let’s say you would have known of this law. So you would have taken it very seriously, but no one else would have, and most probably would have become angry with you for “pushing things” (trying to use that law). It possibly could have ended up that you would have become even more frustrated by what could have happened if…
“At the beginning of that year, I was very enthused about trying my best at Krishna consciousness… so I sincerely prayed to Sri Sri Radha-Damodara to help me serve Them nicely and protect me. It seems that They had something more disruptive in mind.”
Maybe Sri Sri Radha-Damodara (yes, Damodar is a bit mischievous) wanted to open your eyes to at least some of the truth regarding present-day ISKCON and the way things work in it. Damodara didn’t want to continue to be BLIND to the FACTS regarding ISKCON. Damodara wanted you to go through the experience(s) you did, so that you could be WOKEN UP to what’s REALLY what within ISKCON, INCLUDING what’s what in relationship to what you wrote regarding BMS, your guru, and how he did NOT handle things properly (in terms of your being an honest disciple, and how he should have addressed things VERY DIFFERENTLY).
“It was around that time that Vakresvara Pandit arrived as a guest of honor with full red-carpet treatment. I would later learn that it was done through an agreement between the Child Protection Office and Radhanatha and Malati, because Bhakti Tirtha Swami had come to Gita-nagari to die, and he wanted Vakresvara Pandit to lead kirtan as he was dying.”
Birds of a feather flock together (support one another, and…) I’m sure if you knew certain facts about ALL of these people mentioned you might end up very shocked. Anyway, even if nothing else, you would understand why they are birds of the same feather, and support one another. The GBC is STILL SUPPORTING child molesters. Go and find out why SOME of them are STILL living IN various ISKCON communities, including Mayapur besides other places, even though these people are VERY WELL KNOWN (ISKCON) child molesters.
The collective GBC is NOT concerned for Srila Prabhupada, or following His instructions, or even following the laws they make, UNLESS following those laws are going to serve to BENEFIT the general GBC.
“To my surprise, I was unable to get much help from the CPO, but fortunately I was able to get from someone else a copy of the Official Decision finding Vakresvara guilty of child molestation and prescribing a rectification plan for him.”
One thing about present-day ITS GON: Don’t get surprised by anything INSANE that you hear. MANY of the GBC are DEMONIC, as are SOME TPs, and various people who live in the temples today.
“The Official Decision stipulated that unless Vakresvara complied with at least these two requirements, he could not be allowed on ISKCON property or any affiliation with ISKCON projects. Not only did he fail to comply with these requirements, he actually displayed serious contempt for them and for the Child Protection Office.”
Besides Vakresvara Pandit’s own pride and personality, he already knew of the hypocrisy regarding ISKCON in general… so this is nothing to be not expected.
“As I was learning of this, I felt great anxiety because the mood at Gita-nagari was overwhelmingly absorbed in Bhakti-Tirtha Swami, whom I was repeatedly told was a pure devotee.”
People were saying Sai Baba was Krsna. (BT tried his tricks to make devotees think he was an incarnation of Vasudeva Datta. He also told people he was an African king. So many of these ISKCON “in-charges” and their foolowers tell us so many (bogus) things.)
Did you know that some Kirtanananda followers (including some devotees who were initiated by Srila Prabhupada), were aware that K was molesting children, YET, they explained it as “his lila.”
“I was upset because he was leaving his body, and I was never able to get to know him very well.”
You’re fortunate. Knowing you as the honest and GOOD person you are, had you REALLY gotten to KNOW BT, you would have been HORRIFIED!!!
“I was also perplexed over his invitation to Vakresvara, why a pure devotee would want an unrepentant child molester to sing for him at such a special time.”
It would be one thing IF BT had BEEN “a ‘pure’ devotee,” but he wasn’t…
“I found myself in a little altercation with Vakresvara… but I was upset at the notion of arguing with a devotee and offered him my humble obeisances, which he expressly rejected. I was shocked, unprepared for such Vaisnava behavior, and I was glad to see him leave because it had seemed like he was going to hit me.”
You’re lucky VP didn’t. He’s beaten up devotees. If you ever meet his cousin Ramacandra prabhu, (who’s married to Mahalaksmi prabhu), you can ask Ramacandra prabhu about some of the NYC temple “pastimes,” regarding VP’s “handling” devotees.
“Unfortunately, in this situation my guru lied to me, broke a promise to me, and changed his advice supporting me into an order to stop (with no discussion of why). He also rejected me as a candidate for brahmana initiation because I was documenting these events on my blog, apparently without personally reading it.”
Wake up and smell the poo poo… Just logically: Let’s pretend BM wasn’t even your guru. Why would BM as a person, NOT ask you for your input, after hearing from others?
When I was handling management anywhere, whenever someone came to me with a complaint about someone else, I had both parties there before I would address the issue(s); not a back and forth s/he said s/he said. Just this alone – that he never asked you anything – shows BM’s immaturity (and/or politics).
“That put me into about 18 months of severe depression…I consider Srila Prabhupada responsible for ISKOCN and the chain of command that he put in place. After fifteen years and chanting Krishna’s names around 100 million times, the Krishna consciousness has become painful to think about, enough that it has become a relief to forget about Krishna when possible.”
Srila Prabhupada gave good instructions. Srila Prabhupada can’t be held responsible for those who were NOT following His instructions. ISKCON became bigger and Srila Prabhupada utilized what manpower Krsna sent, and gave instructions that if implemented, would have served to prevent certain things from happening, but…Srila Prabhupada KNOWING that some of these people were not following His instructions, tried to “rework” things, but if demons are going to be demons, there’s only so much or so little one can / can’t do. The problem is that some of us as individuals – I include myself here – either didn’t use good intelligence according to a circumstance, or didn’t have the character strength to “do the necessary.”
If nothing else, we as individuals can learn things from what we did or didn’t do. After all these years, I’m having to realize the FACT, that SO MANY people who have devotee names, do NOT have the consciousness of a Vaisnava, and some of them will do PRACTICALLY ANYTHING to CHEAT someone else, and will have NO!!! sense of compunction for having done so. Krsna want to wake me up to this fact (which also applies to people who aren’t devotees, but it is quite amazing how so many “devotees” are possessed of such HORRIFIC DIShonest mentality), and it doesn’t matter what group they’re affiliated with, be it ISKCON, Narayan Maharaj, Prabhupadanuga, etc. There are good, honest people in every group, and out and out DEMONIC HORRIBLE people as well.
“I’m reached the point where I don’t want to care about this movement anymore and I am trying to get free. There is so much hypocrisy that my head could explode. So now I learn about ISKCON Law 3.5.5.1.3.9. It could have done me a lot of good back in 2005, but maybe that’s just wishful thinking. However, maybe I’d still be trying to be a devotee if that law were respected.”
IF that law was to have been respected, BUT, you don’t know IF they would have respected it, AND, MOST LIKELY, they would NOT have respected it, and had you known about it, and brought it up, they might have treated you MORE HARSHLY, and you would have been MORE upset (and probably would have felt more confused).
If you’re finding that “the movement” is not facilitating your progression in Krsna consciousness, then no need to have anything to do with it. (The whole point of Srila Prabhupada’s creating ISKCON, was to provide a society (within non-devotee society), which would serve to enable and facilitate devotees making progress in Krsna consciousness. If you’re not finding that ISKCON is doing this, then no need to be bothered with (or by) ISKCON.
If you feel it’s enlivening to go to a kirtan at the temple (with your family), then go. If you feel strain and stress, then don’t go.
It’s definitely a very SAD factor that so many of us have these “mixed feelings”; that we want the association of (real) devotees, want to have kirtan, and, and, and, but that we know present-day ITS GON has become the twisted entity that it is.
“As I read this law…but we had two other GBC members on extended visit: Radhanatha Swami and Malati Mataji. As I understand it, they were the ones who somehow got the CPO to stick its head up its ass and pretend that everything was OK with having an unrepentant child molester as a V.I.P. at Gita-nagari.”
Seems that’s the position of the present-day ISKCON GBC; getting everyone to stick their heads up their asses, and some GBC are doing other things with regards to sticking other things into other people’s asses.
“I had wanted, along with my wife, to meet with Radhanatha Swami about our concern over Vakresvara, but he would only agree to meet with my wife if I was not there! I have to admit I felt insulted and that it was a very improper condition for a sannyasi to impose. We said my wife would not be comfortable with that arrangement, and instead of giving a reply, he just left with no meeting.”
Considering Radhanath, it’s Krsna’s MERCY on BOTH you and Leslie prabhu, that you did NOT have to deal with such a PRETENDER (pretentious peice of shit) and PHONY!!! If you were not going to see through this BOGUS garbagehead, Leslie prabhu would have I’m SURE!!!
Let me just write in relation to what you’ve written (below) that neither Malati nor Radhanath are honest people. The difference between Rat and Mal is that he can make things so “syrupy” (sickening) that for whatever reason, MOST people get fooled by him. Malati is more crass. But BOTH of them are CHEATERS and LIARS, and HEARTLESS DEMONS!!! Malati was put on the CPO at some point (at the same time as was as Romapada – another heartLESS piece of garbage). Both of them were appointed as CPO advisors – or whatever you call it – NEITHER she nor he caring less about what happened. In 1999 I spoke with Malati regarding the abuses and molestations that had taken place. Her (heartless) assessment: “It’s their karma. They deserved it. They just got their karma.”
As for Radhanath, Krsna knows ALL the facts regarding Radhanath. Ultimately Krsna is the final judge for all of us.
Your servant,
B. Radha-Govinda
Hare Krsna
Radhanatha and Malati, as the responsible GBC members at Gita-nagari in spring-summer 2005, should have been making sure that “In no case should a confirmed perpetrator remain in the local community unless the local ISKCON authorities obtain the written authorization of no less than three-quarter of the parents of children at the project or in the community.” Instead of trying to get permission from my wife and me, for bringing Vakresvara to our community, they were collaborating with the CPO to prevent the Gita-nagari community from knowing that their good friend Vakresvara whom they had invited as a great Vaisnava was in fact an unrepentant child molester. I was trying to get the information needed to understand the situation, so I could properly perform my duty as a community board member and assist my wife on the Child Protection Team, and for this I was rejected by my so-called Vaisnava community and sent down a path where I eventually lost faith in Srila Prabhupada’s teachings due to the gross misbehavior of his leading disciples and the chain of command he established.
I won’t hold my breath waiting for ISKCON poster-boy Radhanatha to be censured by his pals. LOL.
Pando Prabhu, I think this is your blog. By chance today, searching for an Email address for Detroit Pandu, I found an exchange we had a few years ago. I’d forgotten it, I’m sorry to say, but am glad that I found and re-read it today.
I liked very much the two pieces I read on your blog today and will read more later.
Hare Krishna! AGTSP.
You must know of the piece “Organized Religion” (or something like that) by Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati. I read it a few years ago and came across it this week on Alex’s new group.
This is just my note to you, I don’t think it’s worthy of publication on your site.
I did not see a Contact link, but I hope this works. I see my words are automatically published below and will probably go on your site. OK.
Thank you for your time.
Bob Roberts
Hare Krsna Prabhu
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
Very sorry to hear about your story.
ys Suvarna
Hare Krsna,
Your saga reflects the difficulty we all have living in the material world. All of us without exception is subject to the three modes of material nature, and even those on an exalted platform do not always act in a transcendental mode. I have learned and now clearly see – that for those in which the process of Krsna Consciousness works – it is truly amazing (My siksha, is one example) and for those that do not fully surrender to the process, it brings up all of the inner baggage and dumps it into the forefront of the mind and heart to be dealt with. Most of the time when this inner garbage is brought to the forefront for being dealt with – the individual gives into it and instead of surrendering to Krsna (and working through it), surrenders to the garbage of our envious and lustful false ego. Inner self realization is not easy -it requires patience and perseverance, but if one is truly sincere a pure heart will emerge and forgiveness and compassion fills the emptiness left by the false ego. I hope prabhu, that you will find your way again, there are some truly sincere, humble, honest and compassionate senior devotees whose love is tangible, real and viable. I have been blessed to personally know of several – and perhaps more I do not know of (BG 6.32 “He is a perfect yogi who, by comparison to his own self, sees the true equality of all beings, both in their happiness and distress, O Arjuna”) – The process of Krsna Consciousness does work, every religious organization has its demons (Catholicism, Buddhists etc…) but, we can’t judge our own progress by the heavy weight of those who fall. It is only through the sincere effort made on our own, that brings the heart to the Lotus Feet of Krsna and life does change and it does change for the better. I truly wish you the very best – please, do not give up. Chant and happiness will come.
Your Servant,
Jagat Vira
BG 6.30 “For one who sees Me everywhere and sees everything in Me, I am never lost, nor is ever lost to Me.”
By the way – Bhakti Marga Swami is also my guru. He is a very rare and good soul.