I am considering whether to abandon this blog, perhaps to start another. I started this blog with the intention of documenting my happy advancement in Krishna consciousness, but instead it quickly turned into a chronology of outrage, grief, and disappointment in the Hare Krishna movement. I’ve had little good to say about it for the past six years.
I’ve never thought of the Hare Krishna movement as separate from Krishna, as if it was out of His control. If He isn’t even the Lord of the devotees, then who? I spent fifteen years directing my love and worship up the parampara, and now the blame gas to go up too. Prabhupada created a monster with ISKCON that hurt many lives very deeply. Where is Krishna? Who can fix this? I asked if Krishna could be nice, if He would help, but He continues only remain as if He did not exist. What is this?? What kind of God arranges the torture and rape of His devotees’ children when He should be protecting them, and who otherwise does not seem to care? One who should be disregarded.
So my search has ended, but not in the way I hoped or expected.