September 5, 2005
About ten years ago I went on a quest to find out what is the ultimate reality. Of course, I wasn’t sure what I might find, but I knew it would be amazing. Well, I found what I was looking for, except that what was actually a Who. Who? Sri Krishna.
As quickly as I found Him, I lost Him again. Not only lost Him, but I actually forgot about Him entirely. It’s quite perplexing to consider how everyone could forgot who is God; but Sri Krishna, although a person, is a living wish-fulfilling gem. If you want to forget Him, He lets you. We’ve all got our reasons for forgetting who Krishna is, but as for myself, I’ve had almost enough of that.
I’m trying to find Krishna. Someday I’ll succeed in that, but I don’t know if I’ll live to tell about it. He told me that He’d come again to visit me on the day of my leaving this body. It’s hard to wait that long. Of course, death is always just around the corner, but I wish I didn’t have to wait until then to see Krishna again. So I’m searching, searching, searching, hoping again for His mercy.
That’s why I’m writing. There’s nothing more grand in life than trying to find God, to be fulfilled in love, so I thought I ought to share some of that. In the intermediate, I’m a little surprised at where it’s taken me, though also I’m not. I’ve called this place the OppositeRule, which I see as the other side of the “perverted reflection” because one thing I can recall is a principle I held on to in an attempt to find my way back to Krishna. That principle was that when progressing toward spiritual life one may find that the spiritual reality is almost the opposite of what was expected. There’s many facets to the rule, not the least of which is the fact that even what one may think of as opposite is probably not what’s expected. Life is full of surprises.